Flashback!

Tonight was our annual Ladies' Christmas Fellowship for our church. I made a German-ish apple cake (Apfelkuchen) that my mother introduced me to a long, long time ago. I've made this cake A LOT - and it is SO easy - and completed with WHIPPED CREAM. (I should post the recipe but I'm too lazy at this very moment). I have so enjoyed the days I've already been home since leaving behind the routine of my job. Somehow the days have FLOWN by - mostly because I always have something or other to do. Today I had to go back to Walmart after thinking I had gotten everything I needed from there yesterday ... but does one really EVER have EVERYTHING one needs from Walmart?? Our Super Walmart is really the only big store we have where I live anyway ... and I am just thankful that during the day I can usually find a close parking spot, and it isn't too crowded and crazy inside!

Tomorrow I have another weekly doctor appointment (week 36!). I was just thinking back on my last term pregnancy ... and my 36 week appointment. The midwife or NP or whoever it was I saw said that she would check me the next week to see if I was dilated or if anything was going on. BUT I never made it to my 37 week appointment! My water ended up breaking right at 37 weeks - and that was the end of that pregnancy - a little sooner than I anticipated.

I felt almost exactly like I feel today. I have so enjoyed being pregnant this time around - I have enjoyed wearing the maternity clothes that have been lent to me or that I have found at Goodwill. I have cherished the flutters - and now almost violent kicks & movements - inside of my belly. It has been a blessing to share this experience with my children who are older now.

I can't imagine that it could be over by next week - or the week after!

Not that I want to be pregnant forever ... no way!! I'm ready to meet this baby - to see this little one's face - and to get to know her. BUT a small part of me is still cherishing these last few days of being pregnant - perhaps for the last time ever in my life. I am so incredibly thankful for the experience - one that I couldn't really fathom ever having again - and yet, it was given to me.

I am curious to know what tomorrow's ultrasound will reveal. Even though the baby has been shifting and moving around a lot - I still think she is transverse. I am anxious to hear if the doctor will have any hints or insights as to when I might deliver - and how. But I guess mainly, I just have keep taking it a day at a time ... trusting the Lord to deliver her when it is HIS perfect time.