October 15 is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day:
This day comes right before the anniversary of my own miscarriage, which happened on October 17, 2002. I can't even begin to explain how this one event affected and changed my life over the last 7 years. And yet, there are so many women (or should I say couples) who have had much deeper losses than mine - multiple miscarriages, stillbirths, and infant loss due to SIDS, accident, or disease. Some don't have any children yet, and some never will. That is something I can't even begin to imagine, but I have often heard that God doesn't give you grace until you need it.
In any case, I could write a book about the last 7 years - of how God worked and taught me things I would have not learned had I not gone through a miscarriage and what He revealed to me about myself in how I handled my grief and feelings in the years after (not always in the right way) and in my willingness to accept God's will over my own (often reluctantly). I have realized most of all what a fragile gift life is. I do not take my children for granted, and now that I have been given one more chance to experience pregnancy, I feel so undeservedly blessed. God has fulfilled the desire of my heart so completely. I would like to think that if I had never been able to have children, I could still accept God as enough, as all I need; but I am not so sure I could without much, much more grace. My thoughts today are with those I know who have experienced the loss of a baby or child ... and I hope they will let God be their comfort as they remember.
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